If you are an artist within, you encounter an eternal struggle; a feeling of never being fully satisfied and an everlasting itch to always do better.
I have a career where I use mostly the left side of my brain and according to my Edgar Cayce’s birth profile (please don’t ask why I own one), I work in the ideal field for me. I’m considered to be organized, to follow the rules, love the law and justice – and for the most part that is true. For as long as I can remember I have been just that. I have followed what has come easy to me and what is considered normal, but there is a flicker of light inside me that desires more than that. Yet I keep suffocating it with feelings of insecurity and self-doubt.
So I researched, like I always do when I feel conflicted, and found this blog post by Hanna Mayo at Hanna Mayo Photography where she quotes Joyce Maynard as saying: “It’s not only children who grow. Parents do too. As much as we watch to see what our children do with their lives, they are watching us to see what we do with ours. I can’t tell my children to reach for the sun. All I can do is reach for it, myself.”
I have never read words that ring more truth. I’m doing this for three little kiddos whose eyes are looking up at me. I’m getting out of my comfort zone and finally growing my flame, because this is exactly what I want for them to do – be true to themselves and live bravely.